Creation Part 2

Creation Part 2 Reflexivity

February 10, 2015 After thinking and pondering this question for quite some, I found that I kept coming back to the same passage of Genesis, whether intentional or unintentional.  The passage was not chapter one or two but rather chapter 4, when Cain slew his brother and felt such an immense amount of guilt, it became unbearable.   This was how I felt the day I had to leave my brother behind to suffer my mother and stepfather.  I felt a coward.  If thou doest well, shalt thou not be accepted? and if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door. And unto thee shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him. 8 And Cain talked with Abel his brother: and it came to pass, when they were in the field, that Cain rose up against Abel his brother, and slew him. 9 And the LORD said unto Cain, Where is Abel thy brother? And he said, I know not: Am I my brother's keeper? 10 And he said, What hast thou done? the voice of thy brother's blood crieth unto me from the ground. 11 And now art thou cursed from the earth, which hath opened her mouth to receive thy brother's blood from thy hand; 12 When thou tillest the ground, it shall not henceforth yield unto thee her strength; a fugitive and a vagabond shalt thou be in the earth. 13 And Cain said unto the LORD, My punishment is greater than I can bear. 14 Behold, thou hast driven me out this day from the face of the earth; and from thy face shall I be hid; and I shall be a fugitive and a vagabond in the earth; and it shall come to pass, that every one that findeth me shall slay me. 15 And the LORD said unto him, Therefore whosoever slayeth Cain, vengeance shall be taken on him sevenfold. And the LORD set a mark upon Cain, lest any finding him should kill him. 16 And Cain went out from the presence of the LORD, and dwelt in the land of Nod, on the east of Eden. True this story, if it could speak, would tell me I was but a child.  I cannot control the actions of adults who were there to protect me and teach me, and yet it does not stop me from feeling like I failed him.  Cain, himself, would point out, he was an adult when he slew his brother, and he was envious of his brother, where as I had no choice.  I could not take my brother with me when I left.  I know all this in my logical mind.  I understand it, and have gone over the scenario a thousand times, but there will always be a "what if" laying there like the trickster silently whispering in my ear.  In the end, like Cain, the guilt outweighs the good, making it hard to not isolate from others.  "Beware my soul for it bares the mark of Caine." - Self-fulfilling prophecy Cite: Genesis Chapter 4 (GENESIS CHAPTER 4) http://www.kingjamesbibleonline.org/Genesis-Chapter-4/